This morning I came out to the kitchen as the LOML was reading the Sunday paper. “Jodi Fisher passed away yesterday.”
Hearing that hit me in the gut and caused my yesterday to flash in front of me. (Cuz it’s all about me *sigh* -please, bear with me -I go other places with this.) Yesterday was one of my favorite days of the year ~St Patrick’s Day ~and I spent it cocooned in a wrap-around of yuckiness. This was my choice ~I could have shelved what was going on, but I didn’t. I allowed the spinning pity party to continue. It was a party of one, it wasn’t fun, and I let it spin on for way too long.
And it was Jodi Fisher’s last day.
I wrote about Jodi a few weeks ago. I wrote about how she chose to live her last days crossing items off her “Fun List”. Items included meeting President Obama, appearing on The Ellen Show, and giving out free ice cream on her birthday.
I wrote how she caused me to think about how I was spending my days and choices I was making in my life. I see my patterns of behavior and act like a spectator -unable to change what I see happening, unable to control my actions.
This is BS.
I’m not the spectator of this only, priceless life of mine. It belongs to me and only I get to choose how I’m reacting to things that happen.
And yesterday I consciously knew I was spending part of the precious 24 hours of St. Patrick’s Day in a stinking pit of my creation.
I recognized it and kept plowing right on through. I didn’t change my behavior.
I act like I’ve got all the time in the world to do the essential work laid in front of me and stop sweating the small stuff and stop worrying because it’s pointless, and start focusing on what’s important. I don’t have all the time in the world. None of us do.
Jodi reminded me of this, once again, this morning.
An article in the San Luis Obispo Tribune quoted Jodi: “Of course none of us know when we will go, but I think it’s important to give it some thought -you don’t want to wait until you are sick to prioritize what is important in life. I know people don’t think they have time to do this -or it is uncomfortable or scary for them -but really all we have is time. And it’s what we do with it that is important.”
In my opinion, Jodi, you did it right. You made a difference with your time spent on our planet. You crossed items off your list. You inspired others (I know I’m not the only one inspired by you), you smiled and had as much fun as possible. You avoided a pity party when you had every reason to accept that invitation and show up wearing a formal, full length gown. Well done.
Blessings to you and yours, Jodi. And thank you for the inspiration, once again.